Ink Heart: That Little Girl

See this little girl right here? With her smile so big? She's such innocent, naive and young. Call it what you want. You named it. Very fragile. Exposed to scary world. But she doesn't know a slightest idea or realize about that. All she knows that she have a happy family and memorable childhood. She grew up with much love from her siblings and with mum and dad. She's the youngest of all. Her dad doesn't stay at home very much often because he had to go to work, so her mum was always the only person she would seeking for attention. As for her siblings, they were all already teenagers and seldomly being with her. Little did they know, as little as she is, she understands their situation. So she saw how things going in the house, learned how to walk and talk, playing around etc.

She has a strict family, so does her dad. She wasn't allowed to play with the kids in the neighbourhood. Sometimes if she was caught by her dad, she was scolded and was canned. She would cried but just for a while, eventually she stopped. Silly, isn't it? She still loves her dad very much eventhough her dad rarely gave her some attention. As she grew up, somehow she became more naughty, as you can say. Always running around playing. Her mum always care about her.

Her siblings? Well, they kinda like to bully her but in a fun way. Like pushing her down the stairs, calling her names, teasing her until she cried. And then her siblings was scolded by mum. Haha serves them very well. Moving on, there were so much incidents happen, so much memories. Daddy always like to bring all the siblings to go for a walk, go on a trip and somewhere else. She remembered she used to follow her dad and her brother fishing, well she just watched them fishing actually. As with her mum, she always followed her to the grocery to buy stuff or to the mall. She would hold her mum's hand whenever they crossed the road.

A little girl with magical imagination, beautiful dreams, highest hope and expectations.

What else could she wish for? :)

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My beloved mummy, always be my everything. Mum was the loyal housewife. She takes care all of us including our meals, drinks, health, education and others. She's an amazing mum. She never complaint nor sigh a little bit no matter how tired or exhausted she was to do the house chores and to arrange anything for the her children or husband's need. Mum's cook always the best. She teaches us how to be independent and to be able to take care of ourself when we grew older. She has a soft feelings and tender heart. Even though I may sometimes treated her bad but in my heart I never meant any of that and i was sorry deeply. She's the one that helped us went through everything after daddy left. She showed us she was tough when everyone knew deep in her heart she was terribly sad when daddy left us. Now, she is the head of the family now. Fulfill her responsibility responsibly. Despite all the hardships we went through, still, she managed to hold it all back together. She's my superwoman. I love you beloved mummy. Always have and always will.

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My dearest daddy, always will be my number one. Eventhough he left us for almost 8 years now but his presence always remains in each of our every heart. I still remember how he smiled, he laughed, he talked, he scolded etc. I may be still a kid at that time but each of every detail of him never disappear from my mind. Daddy was the head of the family, guiding us along the way. I'm blessed to have such father as he is. Words couldn't explain how much I adore him very much. Maybe a song will. I always listen to Dance With My Father by Luther Vandross as a rememberance of him. Never dreamed of he would be gone from me. If I could steal one final glance, one final step, one final dance with him, I played a song that would never ever end, how I love love love to dance with my father again. Anyone can be a father, but it takes somene special to be a DAD. I love you dearest daddy. No matter what i'm still your little princess. Always have and always will. Forever in our heart.

Well, guess what? Eventually that little girl grew up becaming someone like in the photo. She's been living a bittersweet of life. Looking on those days, the past, the mistakes, the lessons she learned, she's beginning to know what life is about or so she thought. Her emotions can be just like a roller coaster. She have one of those mood-swing that people couldn't realize. Unpredictable, they've said. She still believe in dreams and hopes. Insecure is her main weakness. But she know where and how her strength really is, to face such terrifying reality and the obstacles along her way, the challenges she had to went through. All it takes is to have very big determination, patience and a loyal faith in God. She doesn't want to expect too much anymore because she knew how painful the result could be. She promises to reach her goal as long as she is willing to not give up that easily and stand up strong again. She wants to make people be proud of her including her family and friends because she hates how people look down to her. She may not be that perfect but at least she knows what she's capable of. Don't underestimate what a person could do, even if the person looks ordinary. Music is her biggest influence because music can express so much feelings that people cannot show. She loves to capture a moment with a photo because moments doesn't last long, memories do. Life is a fairytale anyway as what the notes she had written. Living by quotes is amazingly wonderful.

Reality might be a killer.

But dreams can make you a believer.

Inspire and fly freely.

Dreaming with no limitations.

It's your story.

Don't let others write it our for you.