Unhappy.

Guess what? Things got into a mess. I've already got my results. Turns out my results were nothing but disaster. Well, at least to me. I'm grateful though, I still got my 2A's and 5 credits including my 2A's. That should be enough to get me to apply a good college or so I thought. Still, I'm disappointed. I don't expect my results to be like that. Eventhough my family said that it was good enough already, but I don't want it to be just 'good enough', i want it to be 'great'. I'm envy of my friends who got a much better and amazing result rather than I do. Their results were such flying colours. Mine was an embarrassment. I want people to be proud and see that I'm capable of doing something great. But instead, I made people look down to me even more. Since that, I felt nothing but a failure. A total loser.

My self-confidence and my self-esteem are getting lower than usual. I'm feeling more insecure than before. I just can't help feeling bad about myself. It's not that I'm not thankful. It's just that I can't see any special inside of me any more. I am a disappointment. I disappoint everybody else. I'm making myself more depressed.

I'm unhappy. Really really unhappy. I'm stuck, it's like I've been caged in a prison for a thousand years. How am I gonna be independent or even learn how to be if I've been caged like a miserable prisoner? This issues has been brought up many times already. Sometimes, freedom is the only way out. I hate living by people's order. Is it wrong? Am I making a mistakes by pursuing my dreams? To follow my passion? What about MY DREAM? Not SOMEBODY ELSE'S DREAM?! Do I live to follow people's dream? All they ever think was money, money, money. Nothing but bloody hell money. Am I some kind of robot or a statue? Do my opinions even count? Do they? Tell me DO THEY?!

I just can't wait to get out of here. Seems that everyone want to get in my way now. Support? Forget about that. I never get any of that. Not a damn single one! I couldn't hold any much longer. I feel such hopeless. I know crying won't solve anything but I don't know what I'm gonna do to ease things up. Do you know how much pain I have to bear, how much suffer? If only this all could end sooner.....

She cried but no one listened.

The pain inside is slowly killing her.

Be quick.

She might end up going insane.

Because her life is just too much.

Written By,

Lyssa Andrew